In this economy, finding the money to pay for all of your bills is really difficult—trust me, I know. I have been in serious credit card and financial debt for a very long time. For as long as I can remember I have never had enough money to break even– let alone have extra spending money. For me the worst part about being broke is having to worry about what bills to avoid. Obviously every month there are certain bills that I just will not be able to pay: last month it was gas for my car; the month before that was my electricity. I am constantly getting notices and red letters in the mail warning of impending doom.
Through all of this debt, I have done my best to keep afloat. It causes constant worry and stress in my life, but I try not to think about it too much. I would definitely crack if I let it consume my thoughts. Probably the hardest thing about knowing I have so many thousands of dollars in the hole is the fact that I can no longer provide for my family. I have two young children and I have not been able to give them medical insurance, since I cannot afford the cost. They have not had a check-up with a pediatrician since they were in preschool, and do not even get me started on going to the dentist. If I cannot even afford to pay the electricity there is no way I am going to be able to afford dental insurance like the one at this site http://zahnweissinfo.com/zahnzusatzversicherung/ .
I am hoping to get out of this debt soon, but it is much easier said than done. I have been working two jobs for the last eight or nine months, trying to accrue some sort of savings, but it just feelings like I am constantly paying bills and never have enough left over to hold on to. I do not really have anyone I can ask for help, and even if I did I would feel too guilty to ask any of my friends or family members to pitch in a few hundred dollars. I just do not know why it is so hard for me to deal with my finances.
My biggest dream has always been to finally have a job that pays well enough for not only me but my children to survive. I am not even talking about giving them toys or taking them out to the movies or on vacation; I am just referring to the basic necessities that any human child would need. It kills me to know that I cannot provide for my little ones. However I do not know how I am going to be able to find that dream job, so for now I am stuck dealing with being impoverished.










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